Haiku Friday: Pictures of mommy
Thursday, January 15, 2009 at 11:43AM 
Playing with MacBook
just after getting haircut
can be dangerous.
I normally hide.
Tell myself I look too fat.
My kids deserve more.
I realized today that there are NO pictures of me in recent years that I've been willing to share.
Not one picture.
My profile picture on my (personal) Facebook page usually shows a picture of my kids. I know people from high school and college are probably curious how I look now...I'm curious about them, too. But I hate pictures of me. Hate them.
My poor kids are going to grow up forgetting what I looked like when they were young...all because I'm too damn ashamed of the 10 pounds I need to lose?!
ENOUGH! Time to get over myself!
I love looking at pictures of my parents when they were young, and my kids will someday as well. They don't care what I weigh or if I have stupid red patches on my skin every now and then. They will want something to hold onto.
New Year's Resolution: Get in front of the camera every once in a while.
Did it.
Whew, that wasn't so bad...didn't kill me...
Reader Comments (7)
Thank you for sharing!
That’s such a HUGE set of … pretty blue eyes you have there!
You are beautiful!
You should also show off your warm smile more tho.
Rufus
[Ashlie]
Watch it, Rufus!
Oh...and thanks.
those are great! I did the same thing this week--try to take a picture of myself for my blog/facebook that I like b/c there aren't any pics of me either!! I took about 20 photos, and am still not totally satisfied with this photo.
[Ashlie]
We are so critical of ourselves. I'm sure there has to be one w/in 20 photos that is good. What is wrong with us women?!
I understand the feeling in general and think you are awesome for walking through it. Also, those are really awesome shots! I think you look great.
[Ashlie]
Thanks, Maggie.
I think the problem is that I still think I should look like I did when I was 20. It can be shocking to see a picture of me NOW. It doesn't look like ME, to me at least. Well, I'm not 20, I'm 35 now and I've given birth to 2 kids. I need to accept that this IS ME. Period.
I think you are a lovely women. And you have beautiful eyes of the brightest, deepest, blue. Did I mention I think you are a lovely woman? And who, by God, ever told you that you need to lose 10 pounds? SOMEBODY must be blind. You are beautiful. Just beautiful.
[Ashlie]
Thanks, Lou. You are a very, very sweet man!
I tell myself that I need to lose weight whenever I look in the mirror. I used to work out regularly and can't seem to find my way to the gym since having 2 kids. I'm vowing to cut myself some slack. I'll get there, I will.
I agree with all that's been said. Such beautiful eyes...........Peace, Mike.
This is the thing that drives me crazy about the way we see ourselves, because I look at those pictures and think, "Holy crap! She's beautiful!" and yet I completely can't share pictures of me either.
Isn't it amazing how much we take time to capture our children and family that no one ever takes the time for us moms? I think every photo of me in the last 3 years was taken by propping my camera on a shelf while on a self timer. Good for you for taking the time to capture yourself and sharing it :) You look gorgeous! And can I please tell you how jealous I am of your eyes and hair? Because I am :)