Bouncing

Sometimes I think our lives can be viewed from a far away distance as bouncing balls. 

(No, I haven't lost it - completely.  Stay with me here.)

We hit highs and lows and keep bouncing along.  Some of us are good at bouncing steadily and rhythmic - like professional basketball players doing dribbling drills.  Within my day-to-day life, I aspire to be a good dribbler (Ha!  Perhaps that should be my new tagline, no?!)  I find comfort in rhythm. 

Sometimes, an unexpected outside force touches our lives.  It pushes us into a chaotic bouncing of extreme highs and lows while we try to adjust and re-establish rhythm.

That's where I am right now.  There have been so many highs and lows in my life over the last week.

I apologize for the bullets, but I have SO much to tell you and it's the only way I can function right now. 

Here it goes:

• (low) One of my childhood friends unexpectedly died in a car accident.
• (high) I love my readers/family/friends.  Thank you all so very much for your kind words in person, comments, tweets and emails.  I am no longer sobbing in fetal position.
• (low) I have been experiencing waves of, I don't know, panic attacks?  I guess that's what they could be called.  Like yesterday when I had to drive past the exact spot where her car ran off the road.  I often need to remind myself to breathe - and, well, that should just come naturally, shouldn't it?
• (high) My dad was here for a visit from SC and stayed over my house for two nights.  It was great to spend time with him, despite the atypical chaos that surrounded me.  I love the relationship we have now that I am an adult...we had our rocky moments when I was younger.  I love that my kids adore him.  It was such a great visit.
• (low) I thought I got in a fight with someone...but it wasn't really with THAT someone because someone else hijacked their email and posed as them to say mean things to me.  Ugh.  That's all I can say about that in the public forum.  It would make great blog fodder if it wasn't so personal and disturbing.  It was extremely hurtful, especially considering the timing because I was already a mess over losing my friend.
• (high) I went to a Bon Jovi concert last night at Gilette Stadium.  After 27 years, they can still ROCK like no other band I have ever seen.  They played for 2 1/2 hours straight.  Amazing, amazing night.
• (low) I haven't been able to go to yoga since my friend's death.  Partly because it's been a bit crazy here - partly because I fear a wave hitting me, causing me to sob like a dweeb in the middle of class.
• (high) I WON AN ENERGIZER SMART CHARGHER SPONSORSHIP TO BLOGHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I cannot tell you how very excited I am.  Thank you to everyone who helped with my entry, tweeted, liked Energizer on Facebook or just thought positive thoughts on my behalf.  I'll follow up soon with more info - because you're not going to want to miss out on the great USBs we're passing out and the chance to win a $500 target gift card.  Way cool.
• (high) Speaking of BlogHer, I will be hosting a few time slots within the Serenity Suite.  I will put together a separate post in the very near future telling you exactly when and where you can chill with me there.

I'm bouncing steadily right now as I write this.  Trying to keep a positive perspective and know that when I hit lows, a bounce is upcoming and a high will soon be following.

Comments

[Barbara]

Great analogy, Ashlie. Bouncing alongside with you, but perhaps on a lower volume sino wave.

May your lows become more shallow. Love.

[Nicole]

I'm here if you need to vent/chat/laugh/cry to keep your dribble!! xo

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