We're just going to pretend that I didn't fall off the face of the Blogosphere since February, m'kay? Thanks.
At first it was just a quick break. Sure, there were a couple of times I'd go a few days, a week perhaps, without posting here at Mommycosm. The silence made me twitchy at first, but then I settled in and found peace in the quiet. I never intended to take this long of a haitus from writing. And this part of my work.
But here it is. April. My last post was in February.
I started writing a few times. In my head. But something kept holding me back.
The extended quiet began to feel awkward. Friends I never would have met without this here blog started to reach out and ask if I am OK? Did I quit blogging?
I am OK. I am.
Did I quit? Not really. There's a lot going on inside that I haven't wrapped my brain around yet. Could be major moves going on around here. Good things. Stressful things. Uncertain things.
Instead of using this as a platform to work it all out, I've held back from sharing. I guess I will when I'm ready.
I am where I need to be right now.
Softball started a few weeks ago. Enjoying my team this year and I can't wait to see what we can accomplish this season. We lost 6 seniors from the championship team and people are tempted to call this a rebuilding year. I anticipate and hope for much more than that.
My husband has been traveling and working a lot. My kids need me to be present when I am here. So, I've decided not to take on many projects while I have softball going on. Picking the low lying fruit - taking just the jobs that are quick, easy and profitable. It's the right thing for me and them... but I still feel the pull to be doing something more with myself... from a career standpoint, you know?
So... here I am. Dipping my toes. Trying to prove to myself that I can begin writing again without the undertoe pulling me in.
How are you?